The Inner Room- Do you understand (Jesus is the way)

I live a simple Christian faith, almost childlike. In any case, I am convinced that faith is something you live out, what you carry with you. Something that determines your norms, values and behavior. I have nothing to do with discussions about faith about what would or would not be true, whether or not it would be correct, would have been interpreted differently, no.

I can tell things about faith but only explain little. I think that the Bible contains things that we cannot comprehend with our human brain, let alone explain. I don't think that's the intention at all. It is still faith. And that faith gives me peace.
There is a much bigger point of peace. That's relationship. The relationship with the mystery that we have a Creator of heaven and earth who made me as a human being and looks after me. So much so that, caring as He is, he has counted the hairs on my head and will never give me stones for bread. He even came to earth as a human being for me. For the things and decisions I have handled wrong, the pain I cause others and myself. Even in sickness He sees me. I believe that and that gives me peace of mind.

In the person of Jesus He became fully man, and on the man Jesus rested God's complete spirit. I can't explain it in any other way, sorry. It cannot be explained. What can be reasoned is that Jesus will therefore be the only man on earth ever without sin. God knows no shadow or turnaround. Jesus had to come here as a fulfillment of the Scripture as it is already announced in many places in the Bible, that is a miracle in itself. He voluntarily paid for our sin and pain with the death on the cross and then defeated that death with his resurrection. Paid. Everything. Then, now and later. That's how God is, I believe that and that gives me peace.

What does that do to a person, knowing that Jesus has his hand on your shoulder? That he walks with you or sits at the kitchen table and starts a conversation when you ask. So that you don't have to carry things alone.
If I look at that fact personally, it is complex. There has been a long period in my life where I was not myself and had masks on. Despite Christian roots, I wasn't concerned with it, had strayed and mainly listened to others because I thought those people knew it for me. And the pieces would solve for me. They didn't and they can't because that responsibility lies in myself. Depression, impasse and addictions became more and more my part. I also thought to end it, too many knots, too much pain. A war was raging inside me. Then slowly but surely the turnaround came.
Out of desperation, I finally knocked on God's door and to my surprise he opened it and asked softly what I was doing. So calm, this just couldn't be me. God is!  During that time, He showed me that I had never been alone, and I could indeed confirm that. He has always been there in everything and has carried me. A process came into effect and my life was really pruned hard and the ground on which I fell felt like concrete, yet I bounced on it a few times. This is called growth. I got the strength to get up every time from the fact that I was assigned the best coach imaginable. It is Jesus who has his eyes and hands on me and I have mine on Him. Structure, processing trauma, healthy living, sobriety and especially 'take action', are my core values with Him.

If I don't walk in His way, I sink. Fortunately, there is always that hand that pulls me back onto dry land. We talk, sometimes cry and laugh often, a firm slap on my shoulder and on again. I notice that, I feel that.
Jesus' coming has often been predicted while people did not realize it at the time, also in my life building blocks had been prepared that I only saw much later. That's how God is. Many talents and possibilities had been ready to be unpacked all my life, allowing me to grow and enjoy and live to His glory in service and gratitude for what I am allowed to do. The best and sweetest partner and children were allowed to come to me.

Jesus is coming back, He has promised. I don't know when or how, I don't have to. It will be good because that's how God is.
It gives me His peace and rest, I believe that.